As the name of this blog suggests, I’m neurotic over a number of things. One of them is that I have this desire to be really good at whatever I do, often to the detriment of sanity. So whenever I choke — if I slur my words on camera, or if I get caught with a factual error — I find myself flailing around trying to regain balance. In other words, I don’t recover gracefully. This happens more than I’d like, especially when I’m in front of a camera trying to maintain a modicum of maturity and professionalism. Oftentimes, I pull through, no doubt. But simply pulling through isn’t enough for me. I need to be GOOD. And when I fail to do so, it stays in my mind for way longer than it should.

I need to let go. And breathe.