Tearing through
[This is one of those navel-gazing personal type blog posts. Just FYI.]
June is almost over in the year 2008. It’s been a month since my 29th birthday, and I am feeling it. I can’t quite explain what it is — perhaps a sense of impending loss of innocence and youth, perhaps a sense of adulthood and responsibility raining down on me. I don’t really know. Lots of you out there are probably laughing at this confusion; after all, I’m not exactly old either.
But a part of me yearns for the days when I was relatively carefree. I could do things that I would never dream of doing now, when my moral compass was not so clearly defined. As many of you know, I am a terribly boring anti-social person. But I can assure you there was a time when that was just a facade, hiding my inner fiery personality. A few of you have had the privilege to see this personality come to life, and I believe that to be my true character. It’s the kind you see if you chat with me online, and it’s the kind you see if you get to be within my inner sanctum. It’s also the kind you see if you get me drunk enough for me to say things I would not normally say.
That said, there’s little I can do but move forward. And in the future, there be dragons. Dragons that will test my career, dragons that will test my marriage, and dragons that will test my sanity. As much as I try to bob and weave through them all, I realize that I will eventually have to draw out my sword and slay them. I’ll probably get hurt and wounded along the way, but in the end, it’ll be worth it. Well, until the next dragon comes along.
I guess I best get my suit of armor dusted off. It’s going to be a long fight.
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